
There was a bigshot “Educator” fellow
standing in front of me
once upon a time.
Large white bow tie strapped proudly
on with blue spot in middle.
Proud bald head a-gleaming above
the pouring pot belly, and the proud,
well-trimmed, not-so-delicately perfumed
beard, and he was going on, and on, then on,
and more on, about the super, utter importance
of “Comparative Learning Data,” whatever
the fuck that is.
And turning students into ants in the
colony, into complete and total
automatons, if possible.
And he was professing, and professing
again, his personal, private love
of the data that did this.
(He must’ve uttered it a trillion times
followed by the slickest, lip-licking
lizard grin.)
Here in the crowded conference room
(attendance required)
on another brutal Tuesday afternoon.
My brain wasn’t there, except when
he rudely yanked on it
sending it straight back down
into this deadly quagmire
of mental slavery
and spiritual dearth
not unlike
one of Dante’s worst purgatorial nightmares.
I wanted Mary Magdalene and Bob Marley,
but hell, I did my best
to block it all out and simply observe
the dying orange leaves of trees
blowing gracefully outside
open windows
in the west
of the city
with the glorious blue
of Chicago sky behind.
I thought I saw, I was, for a single second,
almost sure I espied
a squirrel
give him the finger
before disappearing into the nest
with complete disdain.
Then I was thinking
of Shelley,
the Poet, not Mary, the Novelist,
I don’t know how or why.
Shelley, on a lecture platform
(he must’ve been on one before at some point
and he was now)
trying to read his latest radical papers
to a nasty audience
who were all
bouncing
rotten fruit
in their hands
so accurate,
terrible
and true.
They were confounded by
his strongest passages,
they were bored, torn,
they wanted to take it out
on him, some started
leaving while the others began
a booing and hissing routine.
But his intense green eyes, they stared
straight down
at his papers
and his messy, unshaved, handsome face,
and his hanging brown hair
were
burning
like Joan of Arc,
contorted, embarrassed,
shocked, humiliated
by the noise
of the terrible crowd.
By the silent noise of these
“happy,” satisfied, orderly, materialistic,
secular,
ladder-climbing,
cowardly,
passive
peoples
who were now stirred up
into a murderous rage
at his merely conceiving
to be different
for even
a second at all.
The Drifter (Images provided by The Drifter)

Drifter
Such an acidy poem, a trip like the film Jacob’s Ladder.
I imagine academia can be a hell on earth because it sounds like Plato but appears to have all the integrity of roller derby, with the funding, politics and of course the darling alumni.
How you made it through with your soul intact is an amazement!
Leila
P.S. Those are two stunning images!
The Drifter of Turin?
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Hi Drifter
A glance and a glance off academia. “And what rough beast/”
This monstrosity of bureaucracy–tide and tides of such…
The descriptions of this are the personification of evil and soul crushing.
It’s good to see your words again, they are always breaking through the impermeable gauze that wraps the mind. Like Jim Morrison.
I like how you end this with Shelly the poet, and what he faced and I think what you faced in academia.
Mind blowing stuff!
CJA
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